LIFE’S FLEETING THOUGHTS or WHAT DO YOU DO WITH A PERSON LIKE ME, GOD?

I DON’T HAVE A CLUE IN THE WORLD HOW I’M GOING TO MAKE IT TO THE NEW WORLD TO COME

I FIND MYSELF WANTING TO DO RIGHT AND THEN THERE I GO, AND EVERYTHING COMES UNDONE

AND THE QUESTION OF ‘HOW MUCH LONGER DO YOU THINK YOU HAVE LAYS HEAVY ON MY MIND

COULD BE THAT EVEN NOW I AM PAST THE POINT OF NO RETURN EVEN AT THIS MOMENT IN TIME

I’M LOSING HOPE FOR I SEE NO CHANGE HARD AS I MIGHT TRY, I JUST SEEM WORSE THAN BEFORE

TOO MUCH OF THE ‘OLD MAN’ LEFT INSIDE WEARING, TEARING DOWN, MAKING IT AWFULLY SORE

I’VE BEEN AT THIS OVER SEVEN DECADES YET NOT ABLE TO SEE THE LIGHT I SO DESPARTELY NEED

LORD, HELP ME, I’M BEGGING YOU, TAKE PITY, BRING ME TO YOU SO AT YOUR SIDE I CAN EVER BE

I CAN’T GET TO YOU; I’VE TRIED AND FAILED SO MANY TIMES OVER AND OVER AGAIN AND AGAIN

FIGHTING, FALLING DOWN  QUICKLY SOON GROWING WEARY, BODY MIND AND SPIRIT WEAR THIN

I  CAN’T UNDERSTAND WHY IT’S SO EASY THAT I FAIL TO KEEP THE COMMANDMENTS YOU GAVE

LORD, I DON’T WANT TO HAVE THIS AS MY TESTIMONY I DIE WITH, WHEN I AM LAYING IN MY GRAVE

I CAN’T LEAD OTHERS WITHOUT FEELING GUILTY KNOWING I AM NOT THE PERSON I PROFESS TO BE

NO GOOD WITHIN MY BEING IS SEEN, ITS’ SO OVERWHELMINGING THAT MY SOUL WANTS TO FLEE

I DON’T KNOW HOW MUCH MORE OF THE TORTURE I CAN BEAR  MY MORAL BEING IS DECLINING

TRULY THIS IS ABOUT THE LAST THING I MIGHT SAY OR DO FOR SURELY, I AM NOT FAR FROM DYING

WHAT THIS POEM MIGHT DO I’LL NEVER REALLY KNOW BUT I NEEDED TO EXPRESS MYSELF TO YOU

YOUR WORD TELLS EACH ONE OF US ALL MANKIND INDEED IN THIS LIFE WHAT ONE OUGHT TO DO

SPEAK FROM OUR HEARTS TO A LOVING FATHER WHO PROMISES NEVER TO FORSAKE OR  DEPART

BY PRAYING, YOUR WORD AND OUR WORD COME TOGETHER INSIDE CHAMBERS OF ONE’S HEART

PITY FROM OTHERS I DESIRE NOT, THEY HAVE THEIR OWN DEMONS DAILY WITH WHICH TO WREST

SO MUCH MORE TRAILS, TRIBULATIONS AND HEARACHES THAN I COULD EVER THINK TO EVEN GUESS

AND AGAIN, I JUST WONDER HOW IN THE WORLD I COULD BE SO SELFISH TO KEEP THINKING OF ME

I MUST DECEASE WHILE YOU MUST INCREASE, NO OTHER WAY WILL THIS SOUL HEAVENS GATES SEE

AT THE CROSSROADS OF ‘NOW OR NEVER’ IS THE CROSSROAD I VIEW WITHING THIS MORTAL MIND

LORD,YOUR PITY I WOULD ASK, FOR YOU SAID YOU TAKE PITY UPON MANKIND SO NAKED AND BLIND

MAY MY EYES SEE, EARS HEAR, MY NAKED BODY BE CLOTHED,  FOCUSED ON THE WAY, TRUTH, THE LIFE

FOR I KNOW THAT THIS COUILD BE MY LAST DAY HERE ON PLANET EARTH, PERHAPS EVEN THIS NIGHT

AUTHOR,  BY THE GRACE OF GOD,      SHARON ROSE LAWLESS

APRIL 09, 2022