I COME THROUGH THESE PRISON DOORS AND BEHIND ME I HEAR THE SOUND OF IT CLOSING LOUDLY AND CLEAR STEPPING FORWARD IN ANTICIPATION OF WHAT LIES AHEAD I SLOWLY WALK FORWARD WITH A FEELING OF DREAD
LEAVING BEHIND THOSE OF WHOM I CHERISH AND LOVE UNABLE TO KISS THEIR TEARS OR EVEN GIVE THEM A HUG THEIR FACES NO LONGER IN MY SIGHT TO BEHOLD THE WEIGHT OF THIS SORROW ON MY HEART CAN NEVER IN MORTAL WORDS BE TOLD
WHAT I WOULD GIVE FOR JUST ONE TOUCH OF THEIR HAND TO HOLD THEM AND TELL THEM IT’S ALRIGHT, MY FATHER HAS PLANS FOR I KNOW HE IS WITH ME FOR IN HIS WORD HE HATH PROMISED I WILL NEVER FORSAKE YOU, AND SO, I WILL NOT BE A DOUBTING THOMAS
FREEDOM OF SPIRIT I FIND AS I SIT WITHIN THESE PRISON CONFINES FOR I HAVE NOW FOUND THE GIFT OF TIME IS ONCE MORE MINE AS A CHILD ALL THE TIME IN THE WORLD ONCE COULD BE FOUND TO LEISURELY CONTEMPLATE LIFE’S MATTERS ALL AROUND
BUT WITHIN THESE PRISON GATES THE SPIRIT OF TRUTH NOW ENTERS IN AND THE LOSS I ONCE FELT NOW FEELS LIKE SOMETHING YOU WIN FOR I HAVE FOUND THAT WHICH I LOST THAT WAS ONCE MINE AS A YOUTH JESUS NEVER LEFT ME, HE’S BEEN BESIDE ME ALL OF MY DAYS, AND THAT’S THE TRUTH
FOR TRULY IT WAS I WHO HAD CHOSEN TO WANDERED OFF LEAVING HIS SIDE BOTH IN MY BODY AND MY THOUGHTS AH, BUT HE NEVER GAVE UP ON MY SOUL, NEVER ONCE DID HE FALTER HE IS STILL WILLING TO HAVE ME AS HIS CHILD, TO BE MY FATHER
BUT EVEN THOMAS THE LORD DID NOT LEAVE ALONE HE PROMISED SOMEDAY HE WOULD SIT BEFORE HIM AT HIS HEAVENLY THRONE SO I MUST NOT QUESTION MY SITUATION AT THIS TIME THE LORD HAS A PLAN FOR MY LIFE, AND I KNOW IT IS SUBLIME
I THANK YOU AND PRAISE YOU LORD FOR YOUR AMAZING GRACE FOR ONCE AGAIN BRINGING ME BACK TO YOU, FACE TO FACE THE TRUTH OF THE MATTER IS THAT REGARDLESS OF MY PAST SINS ALL IS NOT LOST, FOR NOW WITHIN MY HEART I HAVE INVITED YOU IN
YOUR HOLY SPIRIT NOW WITHIN MY HEART DOETH ABIDE NEVER SHALL I CEASE TO GIVE THANKSGIVING FOR YOUR STAYING AT MY SIDE I PRAY MY LIFE SHINES FORTH WITH THE TESTIMONY OF YOUR LOVE THAT I MAY INVITE OTHERS TO THE HEALING OF “ THE GREAT PHYSICIANS LOVE “
AUTHOR, BY THE GRACE OF GOD
SHARON ROSE LAWLESS
OCTOBER 19, 2009